October: Infant Loss Awareness Month Begins

Grief is a very peculiar animal. You can go for seemingly endless time periods without it overwhelming you and then it hits you, violently, like a tidal wave. I lost my daughters eleven years ago and there are times I suddenly feel like I have been lifted off my feet by the strength of my…

The Bereaved at Christmas

Each Christmas, since 2007, I have faced the unimaginable: a Christmas with two children in heaven. It is lovely to experience Christmas with my two rainbow babies (rainbow babies/children: a term used by bereaved parents to describe the children they have after a loss of a baby or child), but, they are not their sister’s…

Why I Don’t Get On With Springtime

With the advent of spring, brings the rise of hope and expectation – new life, warmer days and bluer skies, scrubbed clean by the winters clouds, snow and rain. We emerge from the winter as animals from burrows – awake and alert for the prospect of better times. That isn’t me. I’ve not always gotten…

He Was BORN

Singer Lily Allen has recently tweeted about how she wrote a song called ‘Something Wasn’t Right’ for the ‘Pan’ movie soundtrack, in memory of her beloved baby son. She lost her little boy when he was born too soon at 6 months. I read about her tweets on Digital Spy, the sort of celeb, showbiz…

Lucy & Bryonie’s Story

It is my eldest daughters 8th Birthday today in heaven. They passed away in April and May 2007. Not a moment goes by when we do not love them, miss them or want them. They are everything, just like their two little rainbow sisters. This was written in 2007, just after my eldest daughter passed…

Keeping Going

Hello It feels like an actual age since I last did an entry on here that was not a scheduled post. I suppose it is important at the moment to keep my hand in with writing as it is forming part of my ‘therapy’. More on that later. I’ve revamped the blog’s style a tad…