Charlie Gard, An Angel Too Soon

Update 03/07/2017: Since I posted the original post, news came through that Charlie’s parents have been allowed to have more time to say their goodbyes to him. There is never enough time in this entire universe in order to say goodbye to your precious baby. I hope the time they have been given provides them…

Email from 23rd May 2007 – Sending the News of Lucy’s Passing

Here is a copy of an email I sent out to family and friends a few days after Lucy’s funeral. Back before Facebook was the go-to medium of choice for contacting friends and family, I would occasionally e-mail out updates of how we were getting on post-university. I don’t think anyone really wanted to receive…

Violet-Grace Youens – An Angel Too Soon

In St Helens, Merseyside in the north of England, it was a brilliant, sunny day. The air was still cold as April tried to shake off her winter coat and begin to bask in the warmth of her sister May’s arrival. April, though, for all of her spring flowers and newborn animals, held to her…

Nearly 10 Years Since My Daughters Died – And I am Struggling

I’ve been struggling to understand why I’ve felt more down than usual (even for me) over the past few days. I’ve eaten too much, struggled to concentrate and been barely able to sleep. However, the answer is obvious and I think I’m hiding from it and trying to distract myself from thinking about it, but…

Today is My Mother’s 60th Birthday

My mother would have been 60 years old today, if she had lived. She had just turned 58 about a month before she died. I find myself at something of a loss as to how I should mark the occasion. After all, turning 60 is a huge milestone and should be marked. However, all I…

The Bereaved at Christmas

Each Christmas, since 2007, I have faced the unimaginable: a Christmas with two children in heaven. It is lovely to experience Christmas with my two rainbow babies (rainbow babies/children: a term used by bereaved parents to describe the children they have after a loss of a baby or child), but, they are not their sister’s…

We Sold Our House & Other Excitement (Not Really)

House Sale We’ve sold our house (yay!) and finally decided on a new one. It is a really stressful thing to do, it turns out. We spent the weekend with a skip, throwing out everything we don’t need or don’t use. 10 years of detritus really does add up. Our sale is more mature than…

UPDATE: Letter from Dying Mum to Daughter – Bethany Found

Yesterday’s report on the letter found in a bookshop in Bishop Auckland, that had been written by a mother who was dying, has a happy (or as happy an ending as possible, in the circumstances). Bethany has been found and the letter and accompanying photo returned to her. Bethany Gash is a 21 year old…

Jo Cox: A Yorkshire Lass That Inspired

Why. No question mark, no inference that there is more to follow: just WHY. I heard today to my horror, that local MP Jo Cox was cold bloodedly murdered in Birstall, West Yorkshire, as she finished her advice clinic in a local library. She was a 41 year old married mother of two young girls,…

Why I Don’t Get On With Springtime

With the advent of spring, brings the rise of hope and expectation – new life, warmer days and bluer skies, scrubbed clean by the winters clouds, snow and rain. We emerge from the winter as animals from burrows – awake and alert for the prospect of better times. That isn’t me. I’ve not always gotten…