NEW Poem: Mothers Heart

This is a BIG one for me. I haven’t written new poetry for 11 years. The reason for that, was due to the fact that the last two poems I wrote were about my daughters, who devastatingly passed away in 2007. I figured that there was no way I could write about anything more deserving…

Happy Birthday, Charlie Gard

Rather than focus on the heated and varied debate regarding the medical case of Charlie Gard, I am instead simply going to think of his parents on this special day. Today would have been his first birthday. There is no way that this day last year, Chris and Connie would have dreamt in a million…

Charlie Gard: Hope for Home in Final Days

  For reasons completely out of the control of his parents, little Charlie Gard is no longer able to be treated for his illness. With this in mind, they have made the decision, now all avenues have been exhausted, to remove Charlie from his life support and let him pass away. Their final wish is…

Charlie Gard: An Update

In my last post, I reflected on the impending loss of baby Charlie Gard, the baby at the centre of a battle between his parents and the doctors treating him. When I wrote my post, it was in response to the fact his parents had released a video on YouTube stating that they would be…

Charlie Gard, An Angel Too Soon

Update 03/07/2017: Since I posted the original post, news came through that Charlie’s parents have been allowed to have more time to say their goodbyes to him. There is never enough time in this entire universe in order to say goodbye to your precious baby. I hope the time they have been given provides them…

Email from 23rd May 2007 – Sending the News of Lucy’s Passing

Here is a copy of an email I sent out to family and friends a few days after Lucy’s funeral. Back before Facebook was the go-to medium of choice for contacting friends and family, I would occasionally e-mail out updates of how we were getting on post-university. I don’t think anyone really wanted to receive…

Violet-Grace Youens – An Angel Too Soon

In St Helens, Merseyside in the north of England, it was a brilliant, sunny day. The air was still cold as April tried to shake off her winter coat and begin to bask in the warmth of her sister May’s arrival. April, though, for all of her spring flowers and newborn animals, held to her…

Nearly 10 Years Since My Daughters Died – And I am Struggling

I’ve been struggling to understand why I’ve felt more down than usual (even for me) over the past few days. I’ve eaten too much, struggled to concentrate and been barely able to sleep. However, the answer is obvious and I think I’m hiding from it and trying to distract myself from thinking about it, but…

Today is My Mother’s 60th Birthday

My mother would have been 60 years old today, if she had lived. She had just turned 58 about a month before she died. I find myself at something of a loss as to how I should mark the occasion. After all, turning 60 is a huge milestone and should be marked. However, all I…

The Bereaved at Christmas

Each Christmas, since 2007, I have faced the unimaginable: a Christmas with two children in heaven. It is lovely to experience Christmas with my two rainbow babies (rainbow babies/children: a term used by bereaved parents to describe the children they have after a loss of a baby or child), but, they are not their sister’s…