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The First of my Angel’s Anniversaries Start Today

So it begins. The tenth anniversaries of when I lost my babies have now begun with today. 10 years ago today, I went into labour at work, sat at my desk. I remember panicking and sobbing with the pain and the thought that the precious lives I was carrying were in danger. I remember it… Continue reading The First of my Angel’s Anniversaries Start Today

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Nearly 10 Years Since My Daughters Died – And I am Struggling

I’ve been struggling to understand why I’ve felt more down than usual (even for me) over the past few days. I've eaten too much, struggled to concentrate and been barely able to sleep. However, the answer is obvious and I think I’m hiding from it and trying to distract myself from thinking about it, but… Continue reading Nearly 10 Years Since My Daughters Died – And I am Struggling

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100 Object Project: #21 The Baby Sock in my Desk Drawer

I have had this sock in my desk drawer for many years. It belonged to my older daughter, Daisy. I can’t remember the exact set of circumstances that resulted in this baby sock ending up in my desk, but I can imagine. When you’re a mum, you tend to have a lot of random things… Continue reading 100 Object Project: #21 The Baby Sock in my Desk Drawer

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Haworth’s Graveyard & Having Respect

I want to share some interesting and fairly good news, about something that upset and angered me inspiring me to write to the powers that be about it. Here’s the background though. Haworth is beautiful. I adore going there, the people are lovely, the place is an idyll in the throbbing and heaving life that swirls… Continue reading Haworth’s Graveyard & Having Respect

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Lucy & Bryonie’s Story

It is my eldest daughters 8th Birthday today in heaven. They passed away in April and May 2007. Not a moment goes by when we do not love them, miss them or want them. They are everything, just like their two little rainbow sisters. This was written in 2007, just after my eldest daughter passed… Continue reading Lucy & Bryonie’s Story

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The Perils of Soft Play Centres

On a recent trip back home to St Helens, my step mum suggested we took the kids, as well as my niece and nephew, to a soft play centre nearby. I don’t mind them too much, as long as they are not absolutely heaving, in which case no. Not so much. This one was four… Continue reading The Perils of Soft Play Centres

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Things That Only a New Mum Would (maybe) Understand

I came across an article recently that listed things that only women who have actually given birth understand or know. The list, for me, fell short a tad. I didn’t have a weird zen expectation of birth, nor did I go in with the hope of scented candles and Mozart on a play list. I… Continue reading Things That Only a New Mum Would (maybe) Understand